Been awhile

Well it has been awhile since I've had the chance to write. My mom went home this past weekend and I now have access to my computer --it is in the room she was staying in while here.

Jen was in to visit and it was good to have her here. Unfortuneately for her I was a bit frazzled by the time she got here after having my mom here for 10 days. All in all visiting with the extended family was good. i am very grateful that my son has gone to the dentist and is getting his teeth and gums taken care of. I am grateful that my husband made it through the last two weeks without going crazy. I am not the easiest person to share space with especially if I am taken out of my routine--I need to take time to meditate on God's word each day and I did not do this for most of the family visit. It definitely shows in my attitude and my reactions.

Time to look ahead and not back. You can not change the past but you can direct your future by concentrating on the present.

I look forward to my small group on Wednesday.

Mark & Amy are in my thoughts alot. I pray for a speedy recovery, peaceful minds and for physical pain to cease. God is able to do the impossible. We are to keep our eyes on Him at all times and not on the situation that we are in. think of Daniel in the Lions den, the three boys in the furnace, Moses and the Israelites when they got to the Red Sea, Noah when he was building the ark and it hadn't rained ever before, Job as he lost everything that was dear to him, Joseph as he spent time in prison and as a slave , Leah as she longed for the love of her husband--God is able.

God is in control

Very distressing news today. I have been concerned about Mark's back pain and have even talked with Jen about course of treatment when he had the colon cancer. I was just uneasy. Usually I over react and thought this to be the case again as I read comments from others about the problems they have been having with their back's and apparently this is a common problem. Then I got the call from Jen and it really disturbed me. I know God is in control and his plans for us are to give us a future and a hope. Sometimes it is very hard to accept what happens on earth. I need to keep a positive thought cycle. Prayer and fasting are definitely in order.

On the home front my mom is having some difficulty remembering this week. I guess the change of households can throw you off. She has been losing her medicine which is given toher in a daily container marked at what time she is to take it. I am thankful that people are praying for me so that I can keep my cool for the time she is here. Once again it is not just her but the fact that I really like to be alone quite a bit and with her staying here that is not possible. It helps to know that this is time limited.

Am looking forward to Jen's visit. Get to have time off from work and also to visit Middletown.

Am very grateful that my son has gone to the dentist. He was in danger of losing his teeth and he wouldn't believe me. I worked for a dentist for 9 years I know what happens. At any rate thank God he finally went and is having the problem taken care of. And thank God he has coverage for it.

Tune in later.

Back

Back from my weekend rendevous. Met with Vicci Saturday for lunch and as usual it was a good experience. We are such different people but God has used us to help each other through numerous situations. thank you God.

My mom's house had a flood when i arrived--the sewer had backed up and the carpet was pretty wet. Thankfully the plumber was able to come that night and and dig up the lawn and snake the line out. I need a working bathroom so thank goodness this was taken care of. Also got to watch the first two hours of 24 as my sister had taped it.

Went to Trinity Sunday am. Was nice to see everyone but as I have always found out you can't go back intime. Things change. Which is good but also sad. I am also in this place where I haven't totally attached to my new church and I no longer belong at my old church so I feel lost in the middle. But this will pass. It was good to get back home. Even if I took a detour through Binghamton. (I got lost looking for a place to eat) Oh well--it was an adventure.

Plan to sleep tomorrow. And check out home depot and get groceries--the cupboards are bare.

encouragement

Forgot I wanted to share this:

Rest in the knowledge that God will shine a lamp showing us the next step to take; rest in the knowledge that His timing is always maddeningly perfect; rest in the knowlede that our frettings and worryings can't make anything right; rest in the knowledge that He is for us when the whole world seems to be against us; rest in the knowledge that we don't have to "be good" to make Him love us; rest in the knowledge that nothing we can do will chase His love away; rest in the knowledge that we'll blow it everytime we try to take things into our own hands (so why try anyway?--yet we do); rest in the knowledge that the God of the universe longs to see us face to face in a place that outstrips our wildest imaginings.

Slacking

Well I've been slacking off for the last few days. At least as far as the blogging goes.

But on another front I have been taking care of myself. I made an appointment to get my hair done even though it wasn't the scheduled time--I just felt like a needed a lift. And I finally made my massage appointment and went tonight. It was nice. And i made another appointment to go back.

Work has been much better for almost the last week. Prayer makes a lot of difference.

Will be picking my mom up this weekend to come up and stay by me for about 2 weeks. I believe it will go alright. POsitive thinking is very important.

scruffy seems to having difficulty with her rear leg. Can't seem to jump up and was having problems going down the stairs to get outside. Hopefully it is temporary. I don't relish the thought of being told I need to take her to a rhumatologist--which is probably what the vet would suggest.

Well that's it for now

Till next time.

Thank you Lord

I had a good day today. The pressure was almost none existent and I was able to wrok at a good pace and enjoy what I was doing. I got to use the computer to search for info and pretty much have that down now. I feel much better--more confident. It's amazing how much your feelings can change from one day to the next. I definitely know that spending extra time with God made a difference in me last night and today.

I didn't stay late at work today and I took my lunch hour. (althoug I did use most of it to do some deliveries for work. ) The weather was not too nice today==some snow but more rain and freezing rain. Lots of puddles everywhere.

I spoke with Brenda from my old church online tonight and enjoyed that. Hoping to see her in a few weeks when Jen comes in.

Time to get to bed and make up for the sleep I lost last night by going to bed so late.

A Good Day

Today was another long day ( lots of work) and I got kind of overwhelmed. I feel safest when my environment is orderly and where I work will probably never be as orderly as I would like. It is always busy, which I like, but I do not like the stress I put myself under in trying to get ahead on the workload. The reality is that I need to take each day as it comes and do my work to the best of my ability and let it go at that. Much easier said than done.... Tonight at small group I was able to share a little bit of stress and it helped. I still have this horrible headache and my face is breaking out so I know that there is a lot that I need to process and deal with. My body usually expresses itself when I try to ignore things that are bothering me or building up. I chose to pray about this earnestly keep asking God to remove these feelings of inadequacy which is underneath much of this.

Positive thinking, laughter and more laughter. It really is good medicine.

We may have some snow on the ground in the morning....

Good night sweet world--tomorrow comes quickly and I want to get some sleep.

Long Day

Today was a long work day. Didn't take lunch and stayed till 6:30 trying to get ahead. In addition to that I brought work home and spent another two hours putting some things in order.

My boss wants to show me how to use the computer to help me be more efficient. I can't get him to understand that it takes me longer to input info than to keep notes on what I need to do. I know how my brain works and when it comes to computers and being put on the spot I go brain dead. It is kind of like I don't have enough "memory" to switch from one thing to the next. However I will try to learn what he shows me and hope for the best.

Time to get to bed. Hope Debby is feeling better soon. I am sorry that Mikey has to spend some time in jail but the rehab part will be beneficial for him and his family. Besides, during this time you can relax a bit and know where he is and that he is safe. The hard part comes when they come home into the real world and have to make it in a day to day environment. I always tried to make the most of the time that my husband was in treatment including taking part in any family programs that were available. Al anon also helped me a lot to understand the dynamics of what was going on. It gave me valuable tools to learn to live with this disease.

Going to bed

Good Start

Well I am off to a good start. With blogging I mean. I am making an effort to write everyday. Today was the first day back at work after the holidays and I enjoyed going back. I could have used a bit more sleep this morning as I have gotten used to sleeping a little later but once I was up the day turned out nice. Work is the one thing I have now that is a constant. I am still not on track with the church I am attending--haven't plugged in--even though I am part of a small group. we had a two week break and that is not good for me. It is like starting all over again. Back to work. I really enjoy going there every day. It makes my life seem useful. I like having a routine--a set schedule. I am a very routine oriented person. Changes throw me off.

Weather here has been unusually mild. No snow to speak of. Last year at this time we had had a few major storms. This year we are almost looking forward to one.

Made some progress yesterday with setting up my file cabinet. Getting organized again. Looking forward to having Jen come in to visit.

John started to paint the hallway this weekend. It is a project and I am glad that I don't have to do it. It will look much nicer once it is finished. Next I plan to work on the bathroom which need to be wallpapered and then the kitchen. In the kitchen I plan to change the hinges on the cabinest to match the knobs (the old ones are covered with paint). Then I will repaint the cabinets, we plan to install a dishwasher and maybe add something to liven up the walls a bit. Al in all things are coming along nicely.

I am trying to stick to losing so weight. Right now I am fighting the temptation to eat a cream donut that I bought yesterday. Think I'll make a cup of tea and do some reading.

Till next time...

Consistency

Well I need to try and write each day so I will start a new habit.

There are still some kinks that need to be worked out with this site. I need to find out how to get to this part on start up.

Today was a good day. Went to church, forgot my pocketbook and couldn't remember if I had taken it with me or not. Had to call home to check. We saw a sneak preview of the new drama that they are going to put on next weekend. I hope to see it. It is based on an Agatha Christie novel. Then the pastor didn't preach but the youth pastor did. This was my first time hearing him and it was good. Got some insight inti who he is and where he is from. He used a Max Lucado children's book as the basis for his sermon.

to be continued...

A New Year

Well I am off to a good start. I have created a new blog all on my own. This happened only because I wanted to comment on someone else's blog that did not allow annon. responses.

Let's hope I can access this once easier than the other one and therefore will make more entries.

I started the new year of by sleeping the whole day. I got up at 12:30 and ate brunch, then went back to bed till 7PM. Most unusual for me.

Think I will have dinner now

Till next time...